Ex-Pastor Tullian Tchividjian Speaks Out at Website for Ex-Pastors

Tullian Tchividjian article at ExPastors.com, clergy sex abuse, suicide, repentance, restoration


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Only one month after Tullian Tchividjian remarried, he has publicly released a new article at a site for former pastors, ExPastors.com. In the article, The Freedom in Losing it All, Tchividjian shares lessons he has learned about himself since his sexual scandal.

 

The following is an excerpt from the article:

But as shocking and painful as all these losses were, my instinctive response shocked me even more: the rage, the blame-shifting, the thirst for revenge, the bitter arrogance, the self-justified resentment, the dark self-righteousness, the control-hungry manipulation, the deluded rationalization, the deep selfishness, the perverted sense of entitlement. Maybe these disgusting things which flowed from my depths with such natural ease shouldn’t have shocked me. After all, I was well known for talking about my own messed-upness, talking openly about my sin and selfishness, my faults and fears, my pride and pains.

In the article, Tchividjian also discloses a suicide note that he wrote (boldface in the original):

This disgusting truth about myself (and the desperate aloneness that I felt because of it) made me want to commit suicide. In my darkest moment (after researching for two hours the best way to kill myself), I wrote this:

Words cannot express the pain I feel for the hurt I’ve caused. It has become too much to bear. Based on what I’ve done and the pain I’ve caused, I have concluded that it is safer for all those I love that I just disappear. 

Life without hope is death. 

At the end, I tried. I really, really tried. God knows that my apologies and my expressions of love were real. So real. But what does that matter when the people you want so bad to believe you, don’t? I understand why they didn’t. Given my recent track record, why would they? So when it became clear that those I love most wanted nothing to do with me, the choice I needed to make became clear. 

Initially, I got angry and defensive when I was told that I’m a monster, evil, disgustingly dangerous, etc. But it has sunk in and I finally believe it. I am all those things. Lord have mercy. 

One final word to the church: when people screw up bad, try to help them. Do your best to sacrifice anything and everything to help them. More than likely, they screwed up bad because they need help. Don’t turn your back on them. Pursue them. Something isn’t right with them and they need help. Even if they have hurt you bad, do everything you can to help them. 

“It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest that I go to than I have ever known.”

The article concludes with this message:

The gospel doesn’t just free you from what other people think about you; it frees you from what you think about yourself.

 

Here are a few preliminary responses on Twitter to Tullian Tchividjian’s new article:

 

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And here are a couple of comments posted on the article:

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155 comments on “Ex-Pastor Tullian Tchividjian Speaks Out at Website for Ex-Pastors

  1. Oh brother. Here we go. German society was always top down oriented. Obeying the ordersoff the authorities was considered moral. The breakdown of that order after WW1 just paved the way for what they craved. It was not about independent thinkers taught to make free will responsible choices. But good Germans obeying leaders. It was more like, who are my leaders to obey?

    Hegal’s dialectic was more influencial than Darwin! Most of what came out of German academia was more influencial in England and later the USA.

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  2. The tragedy of Tullian T’s story should serve as a warning to us all. It is the fruit of the false gospel he believes, a half-truth, effectively an untruth. Yes we are saved from the penalty of sin by Christ’s death on the cross and God’s grace, but we are also saved from its power by the same grace. That is what’s missing, as is any reference of the need to fear God. It is the whole counsel of God’s word we need to heed not just the parts which make us feel comfortable. Scripture in numerous places exhorts us to repent and flee from sin (not just feel sorry), to pursue holiness (without which no one will see the Lord) and to deny self and take up our cross daily. The road to life is, according to Jesus, narrow and difficult but by God’s grace and power we can walk it.

    Peter M

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  3. I would disagree KAS. After considerable research in this area, I believe that very same anti-Christ spirit is still at work today in this post modern era, working harder than ever to fulfill Almighty God’s prophecy leading to Jesus’ Second Coming.

    Prophecy unfulfilled would make our Holy LORD a liar, which He is not.

    Dean Good has an interesting talk concerning the state of affairs concerning visible Christianity, entitled, “As Goes The Church, So Goes The Culture.” He touches upon a few points that are worth pondering and praying over.

    And Hitler DID value the filth of the pseudo theologian, Martin Luther, in highest regard pertaining to his hatred of the Jewish/Christian/Gypsies/ Weakest and Helpless People of his day. Our Scriptures clearly state, out of the heart, the mouth speaks, thus the hatred Luther felt for a group of people is not inexcusable.

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  4. Katy,

    Wow, yes, I fully agree with your whole comment.

    I fully realized about ten years ago that prophesy must take place, whether we like it or not, whether we disagree with it or not.

    For example, one prophecy already fulfilled, of course, but it sets the example, is that of the Prophecy that Jesus will come from the family line of Judah.

    So, to me, this is a spiritual issue between God and Satan, having nothing to do with Onan, who didn’t want to have kids.

    Satan did his best to make sure that prophesy of the birth of Jesus did not happen, and he tried in many areas of history, but failed. This was one of them, because in order for prophesy of Jesus to come from the family line of Judah, since Onan was not a willing participant, and neither were his brothers, Judah had to sleep with the widow of Onan. There was no other hereditary way to make it happen except through that means. Conclusion, prophesy fulfilled.

    Satan vs. Jesus, we fight not against flesh and blood, but spiritual forces. Satan interferes with man to thwart prophesy, but God intervenes to make his word stand.

    At least, that is my understanding.

    Ed

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