I Look to the Shepherd

We’ve had a busy week on the blog discussing how dictators abuse their authority over their people and comparing their characteristics with spiritual abusers.  The last couple of days, we’ve read examples of the pastor recording private conversations without permission.  

In contrast, the Bible talks about how pastors are to be like shepherds.  They do not lord over us, but guide us, look out for us, restore our soul.  In 1990, our family lived in the Philippines and we experienced a major earthquake.  Reports at the time said the magnitude was 7.8 to 8.0 on the Richter scale.  The initial quake lasted 45 seconds and within a minute there was a second earthquake lasting around 30 seconds.  There were 673 aftershocks that first week alone.  Some of those aftershocks were 6.0 and above and it was very difficult to function normally when the ground was moving so much.  We never knew if the next aftershock was going to be another major earthquake and if we needed to escape the building.   Having an infant and 3-yr old to protect kept me on edge.  I was having trouble finding my Shepherd amidst the chaos going around me and beneath my feet.  

Needless to say, my mind sometimes refused to settle.  This song, however, did bring peace to my soul and it was played over and over again -and loudly.  I wanted the truth to invade the fear that I was experiencing.  The song is about the Good Shepherd, based on Psalm 23.  

Some who have left may be experiencing a whirlwind of emotions:  sadness, anger, grief, relief, powerlessness, fear, shame, doubt, anxiety, etc.  What helped me during my tumultuous time was to cling to what I knew was true.  The Good Shepherd, Jesus, was my solid ground and I sung my heart out to Him.  When I was focused on Him, my emotional ground was peacefully still.  I needed the Shepherd to tend my soul.


Psalm 23, ESV

The Lord Is My Shepherd

A Psalm of David.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.


    He makes me lie down in green pastures.

He leads me beside still waters.


    He restores my soul.

He leads me in paths of righteousness

    for his name’s sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,

    I will fear no evil,

for you are with me;

    your rod and your staff,

    they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me

    in the presence of my enemies;

you anoint my head with oil;

    my cup overflows.


Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me

    all the days of my life,

and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord


3 thoughts on “I Look to the Shepherd”

  1. Thank you so much. These trials surely have drawn me nearer to Christ and His Word. He gives strength and hope in the darkest of days, praise be to God for His gift of Christ, and His children to encourage broken hearts~encouraging us to hold onto Him, our true and faithful Shepherd.


  2. Thank you Julie Anne and Kathi for Spiritual Sounding Board! I’ve been reading it for about a year. It has been helpful and encouraging to me as well as heartbreaking. Someday I’d like to share my story of subtle spiritual abuse and how it has hurt my husband, children (who are now grown) and me. God bless you!


  3. Thank you, Cindy. I’d love to read it. I’m sorry that your family also experienced spiritual abuse. The fact that you are reading blogs related to spiritual abuse years later shows how harmful it is.


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